Woah.. I totally forgot that I even had this blog. Life definitely got in the way.
Looking at these previous posts of mine, I cringe at poor grammatical and journalism skills, as well as the content of the posts. In all honesty, I am wanting to delete them, but at the same time, those posts are pieces of my history, that even I, myself, forgot.
Well, here we are 5 years later. As you can assume, a lot has happened in the half decade: High school academics (preparing for college), friendship struggles, deciding on a career (or major for college), choosing a college, applying to college, family issues, finding yourself, and perhaps, the most noteworthy, your first romance as well as your first heartache.
Hopefully, I will be able to post once or twice a week about my experiences in hopes of giving you gives my insight of them and perhaps giving some advice.
However, I do believe a life update is urgently needed. So my next post will be an update!
Not So Typical
I guess you've found my blog. Well. Here is where the thoughts, that cross my mind often, come to life. I doubt I'm the only one thinking of these thoughts. Hopefully you can relate to some of these thoughts. Feel free to comment or write to me. I'll gladly reply to any emails I receive. Thank you all❤ Love, MaryKay❤ Email: wraymarykay@gmail.com
Monday, October 26, 2015
Sunday, October 21, 2012
Boys
As a teenager living in a society where hook-ups and sex are 'the thing', you have to try to not be peer pressured. Maybe peer pressure isn't the best term for what I'm trying to explain. The feeling that you aren't doing what everyone else is doing. The feeling that you are a outcast for not doing whatever it is. We are going to call that feeling a type of peer pressure.
I've felt this feeling so many times before. I never fully understand why though. I'm perfectly used to the fact that I'm different, and that I stand out from the crowd. Which is a postivie quality to me, in my eyes at least. So why on God's green earth do I feel any different when it comes to this topic? I don't know...
I'm a virgin. Will I be waiting till after marriage to lose it? You know, I want to think I am. But if a guy comes along, and we've been dating for 2 years or so and I feel like I truely love him. Then I might lose it then... I guess you can never really say, since it all happens in the heat of the moment...
But for now, I think relationships are dumb, and stupid. All the do is cause stress. Not only that but they also take you away from your friends and you tend to close them out and be up the butt of your mate. I can't stand that.
But then there is another part of me, longing to be loved. To have a guy, hold me tight and snuggle with me. To have someone there is comfort me when I need it. Someone who can make my heart beat fast... BLAH.
This part of me has been coming out ALOT lately. & I can't take it anymore. It's so annoying to me to have such conflicting thoughts on relationships. Hormones suck poop...
I've felt this feeling so many times before. I never fully understand why though. I'm perfectly used to the fact that I'm different, and that I stand out from the crowd. Which is a postivie quality to me, in my eyes at least. So why on God's green earth do I feel any different when it comes to this topic? I don't know...
I'm a virgin. Will I be waiting till after marriage to lose it? You know, I want to think I am. But if a guy comes along, and we've been dating for 2 years or so and I feel like I truely love him. Then I might lose it then... I guess you can never really say, since it all happens in the heat of the moment...
But for now, I think relationships are dumb, and stupid. All the do is cause stress. Not only that but they also take you away from your friends and you tend to close them out and be up the butt of your mate. I can't stand that.
But then there is another part of me, longing to be loved. To have a guy, hold me tight and snuggle with me. To have someone there is comfort me when I need it. Someone who can make my heart beat fast... BLAH.
This part of me has been coming out ALOT lately. & I can't take it anymore. It's so annoying to me to have such conflicting thoughts on relationships. Hormones suck poop...
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