What is this Feeling?

Have you ever just felt down. Like you just want to crawl up in a ball and just watch life unfold it's twists and turns. Gosh, how I feel like that now. There is a feeling in my tummy. A feeling, of which, is unusual and unpleasant. It kinda feels like an empty pit in my stomach, pulsating every aching second. The pulse, itself, is a horrible feeling, like someone is just stabbing my stomach again, and again.. Letting the emptiness escape into my body.

I wish I could label this emotion that has been attacking me for the past few days. I want to say it's depression, but I've been through depression and it was far worse. Maybe I'm just sad. Maybe I'm mad? Whatever the emotion may be, it hurts like hell. I don't know exactly why I'm telling you this... Maybe I'm hoping in a way, that you, have felt this feeling too... I wish I could think of more things to tell you all, but I feel drained... Life is getting to me... Oh dear..